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Book Title: The Sacred Journey

Of Mother Ayahuasca

A Portal to Your Inner Truth

BY MAESTRA STAR WEAVER

INTRODUCTION

I have written this book because of my experiences with Mother Ayahuasca. As a participant and also in my later role as a Maestra.

I have always called the sacred medicine.  Mother. She who helped me with the visions through gateways and portals I had some vague idea of but had never seen. She who sings songs through the roots of the rainforest and all her sister plants and weaves us through galaxies and many hidden doorways. Mother is known to many as ayahuasca but holds many names.  She is a vine. A spirit connection to the great Mother Earth. A sacred brew created with her and other Master teacher plants. But she is the infinite intelligence that animates the healing process, the force guiding the visions, the fierce love that tears away all your illusions so the truth can rise up unashamed from the rubble of your being. Mother is the one who assisted me. Not back to a place of wholeness. That came a lot later on but a place where I had stepped beyond suffering and deconstructed belief systems in my reality preparing me for the next step on to the next Journey.

Mother guided me to write this book so I can share with people who are going to partake—or have already journeyed—with this sacred plant medicine. I offer the transmissions of what she gave me: many of the teachings, visions, instructions, and initiations she shared with me along the way. All of the pleasant and beautiful epic experiences and also, the bruising, bone-deep, ego-shattering challenges. The death and rebirths over and over again. Those unrelenting lessons that came not to punish me, but to purify me and others.  Her profound teachings and insights are still playing out in my life to this very day. Some of her words arrive years later, long after the ceremony has ended. This is how Mother works—layer upon layer, cycle after cycle, until you begin to understand her rhythm. The heartbeat of Mothe Earth as I like to call it.

This book will mainly be about Mother's teachings and wisdom and not a scientific explanation. Though I will touch upon those aspects in some part—particularly around preparation and the diet and integration.   Which is just as vital if not the most important part of the journey and must never be skipped or underestimated. If you are new to the medicine. If you have been drinking for some time and are just looking for some deep explanations and understanding.  I will also talk about the experiences of partaking in ceremony and some guidance on how to interrupt some of the visions and messages you may receive. You may wish to bypass the diet and preparation sections at the beginning of the book. Or you may even find that there is information in there that you were not aware of. It will also help those who may be interested in holding space for others in the future as a reference point.  The integration section will follow at the end of the book because as mentioned what happens after the ceremony is just as important, if not more so, than what happens during it.

The main objective of this book is for Mother to share the knowledge and the wisdom using me as the instrument. I am not going to go into the ego explanation of how many times I have drunk the medicine. It is an extremely vast amount, and I do not recommend that anyone needs to drink as much as I did or should feel they need to. It still surprises me to this day how I am still sane. Numbers are not the point.  I am sure there are many other experienced shamans that have drank many more times than myself. But what is more important than anything is did they listen and act on what needed to be done.

Many people in the shamanic circles like to boast about how many times they have drunk the medicine, as if it makes them feel more superior in some way—or that they are somehow more enlightened or more advanced than everyone else. One of the many lessons I was taught by Mother was that someone can drink once and become enlightened—and someone else can drink hundreds or even thousands of times and still be stuck in their patterns and old soul contracts they just cannot free themselves from. Ayahuasca is not a magic escape route. It is a mirror, a scalpel, and a portal. For us to use and to assist us. In getting to know ourselves, our multidimensional selves.

In many ways, the amount I drank is not a compliment to me. Although 85% of my consumption of the sacred medicine was to be in service to others, the intensity and repetition of my own initiations were part of what Mother required in order to shape me. My own personal journeys are a large part of this book—but I also learned so much holding space for others, listening to their souls remembering. Allowing the purging, creating the songs and also the silence, walking beside them in ceremony, often wordlessly, knowing exactly what they were experiencing because I had been taken there too many times.

I went through a rigorous process of study. I had a long apprenticeship of training and developing the ability to hold a sacred space for others with this Master Plant Teacher. This involved intense plant dietas.  Each one was a test, an alliance, a sacrament in itself.  Getting to know all the different plants gifts, teachings, healing properties and like us humans’ different personalities. My apprenticeship involved initiations, spiritual trials, and painstaking assignments from my teacher before he would allow me to rise to the next level. This was no overnight certification. My journey was a hard one. I was shown and also had to be put through many different experiences that were not even my own journey or for my own healing. Mother wanted to make me a great vessel to assist others. She hollowed me out, sometimes painfully, so the medicine could flow through me unimpeded by my own stories and especially my tendency to over think everything. She needed to burn away any interference.

She allowed me to gain a deeper understanding of the medicine and its enormous potential for healing and transformation. She helped to train my already clairvoyant vision to see in the dark, to recognize where someone was in their process, to track their spirit through the multidimensional terrain of a ceremony. To be able to identify entity attachments and know what anyone was going through in any moment. Within the sacred container of the ceremony. So, when I was eventually ready to hold my own ceremonies, I knew what to do in any given moment.

I am committed to sharing the teachings with authenticity, integrity, and respect. Too many people are coming to this sacred plant medicine and are not giving her the respect she should be given and deserves. To be frank, this medicine is not for the faint of heart. And it is not to be messed with. She can tip you over the edge if you are not guided and held in a sacred space by someone who knows how to work with the medicine—not only during a ceremony, but before and afterwards as well. The importance of preparation and integration are unfortunately widely ignored. And although rare, people can really struggle for months and even years afterwards—spiritually, emotionally, energetically. This medicine has the power to crack you open. What happens after that crack matters immensely.

The medicine of ayahuasca is known by many names. Some examples are Mother (Madre), Grandmother, Aya, Vine of the Dead, Vine of the Soul, Yagé to name just a few. For everyone, it is a very personal relationship that is built with the Spirit of this plant. She is an entity. A teacher. A cosmic midwife. Each journey builds upon the last, like vines wrapping around your DNA, unlocking codes one turn at a time. Layer by layer she gets to know you better than you know yourself. Until at some point at the later stage of your journey with her. You finally really know thyself!

When I first started my journey with this plant medicine, the popularity of the plant ceremony experience was very underground. Very few people knew about the possibility of attending—or even experiencing—this plant medicine. Even if they had heard of ayahuasca, their only reference to it was that it was only available in South America, with traditional shamans deep in the Peruvian rainforest.

Today, ayahuasca is consumed all around the world. It is illegal to consume and hold these ceremonies in many of these countries. But people still take the risk to hold and partake in these sacred ceremonies, with the rituals and the sacred medicine of Ayahuasca. This in itself tells you how much this plant medicine is life-changing for many people. That they will take the risk and are prepared to endure much oppression for the chance to meet and sit with her presence.

Many space holders are prepared to give up their freedom and face a potential prison sentence. But this is not the only obstacle they must face. Oppressive entities and dark forces will try to stop them from doing this sacred work. This is real, and it is common. Ayahuasca shamans are energetically attacked. Often. They have to clear and remove these energies and entities—and even curses—from themselves. Sometimes daily. They and their families will be targeted by these dark forces until they grow strong enough, spiritually, to reach a frequency where these energies and entities can no longer attach to them. This is not something that can be taught in a weekend workshop. It is something the shaman has to go through and come out the other side.  A fire walk of the soul. When they finally come out the other side—tempered, sovereign, and aligned.

I will talk about all of my experiences and adventures with the sacred plant medicine ayahuasca. Including my darkest moments. Where I just wanted to leave this world and run away from the hard tasks ahead of me. When I was feeling completely lost and utterly resigned, believing the fight for humanity before us was futile. But something inside of me pushed me further and further. Even when I thought I could not take any more. I was taken to the next level. Each time I managed to fight through the initiations that this medicine put me through, I grew stronger and stronger. And I was eventually crowned as a Maestra.

One might think it all ends there. But this was just the beginning of a whole new level of teachings. As I was often told. The Master knows that they know nothing. That everything they have learnt up until this point was just all part of the illusion. I was told that to forget anything any teacher had taught me.

Now I was stepping into a new arena where I no longer needed a teacher. Whether that be a human teacher or a plant teacher. That everything is just a tool to assisted me in my own soul’s experience. That was really hard to comprehend at first and it took me a few years of being a Maestra before I truly could say that I fully stepped into being a Master of my own soul. I will leave this here for now as it is a big part of the ending of this book.

I will not be writing this book as a biography, but I will be explaining some of the teachings and referring to my childhood experiences, etc. The early part of my journeys were a mixture—dark, oppressive, and terrifying experiences with glimpses of the magic, the divine connection, the presence of the most benevolent Star Beings, and the God Consciousness within myself that I had no idea was there.

It is quite common to be given small glimpses of hope—to entice you to keep coming back to the medicine. To keep us doing the groundwork of clearing the negative aspects of ourselves. To not get lost and fall back into our everyday behaviours and patterns. And to prevent us from falling back asleep again.